Updated: Dec 13, 2019
I'm going to be forthcoming, transparent and honest with this post....Continue reading and let me know your thoughts! Let's jump right in and I want you to ask yourself some questions to see if you can relate. Remember it only works or will hit home if you are honest with yourself first!
I'm here to let you know that you are not the only one. I repeat....YOU ARE NOT ALONE.
It's totally normal to get to a point and just not give a sh*t about how someone may feel or not agree with the route that you were pressured to take. Now it's time for you to get to a point where you stop apologizing for not being who they wanted you to become and stop feeling that it's your job to be PERFECT! Because it's not healthy and sh*t is fu*king draining.
When you change your path to live your life according to your own set terms...I promise your quality of life will change. I won't lie and say it will all be fu*king perfect with all the bells and whistles. What i'm saying is you will live a life that has a sense of purpose and fulfillment opposed to "doing whats right or what's expected of you". Get rid of feeling the need to be perfect, get rid of the feeling of always doing what's right...Remove anything that is not working or on your terms. Start living for YOU.
Life will still have it's ups and downs. There is no way to avoid it and to be honest that is what makes us into stronger and improved individuals. It's what transforms your DNA and makes You.... YOU. The biggest lesson is learning from your experiences opposed to letting it break you down while placing you into the dark tunnel.
The only option you have left will require you to raise your head and continue moving forward. Don't sit in that feeling for too long. Embrace the feeling for the moment and remember what got you there and how it felt. Pick your head back up and realize there is no other way to go but up because you already hit rock bottom and can't go down any further.
If you change your perspective on this it can be a gift in itself. I know you are reading this and wondering "How the fu*k is this a gift?! Is this chick crazy?"
Now I won't lie to you and say I have all my screws tightened but that's not apart of this topic. The gift in hitting rock bottom is that you get to start over. You now know that the actions you took before did not work and was able to see what the outcome was with accepting how you felt. Acknowledge all of that sh*t. Take into account of who supported you and who didn't have your best interests at heart. This is the time you remove anyone that's toxic and start over. Remember some people are placed in your life for a season and some are placed for a different reason. Nowhere in that quote does it state that everyone that enters your life is supposed to be there forever.
You just reached a point in your life where you're fed up with everything not going the way you want it be but ready to take back control. That is the first step in the right direction. Pick your head up and see the light of new beginnings!
You got this!